
Saturday, July 05, 2008

Guilty Annoyances
Frustrated SIGH.
You know sometimes you piss me off alot. ALOT. The things you say are so frustrating and just piss me OFF. What's more, I just feel so guilty for disliking you because you mean well and you're a nice person, but I just can't seem to make myself like you. Admittedly, sometimes I try my darndest to like you, and sometimes this works. But most times I fail miserably and end up being annoyed at you whilst feeling guilty for being annoyed at you at the SAME time.
Which only serves to frustrate me more. And yet I can't bring myself to tell you howirritating you are. Love your neighbour as you would yourself, this much I am certain, but the things you say and the way you say things...
You might not mean to annoy or irritate me, but you DO. Your ideals and ways of thinking just really really annoys me. Pisses me off. You're a nice person, but I can't seem to agree with you, or tolerate you for long periods of time.
I'm so so sorry that I feel this way. I wish I didn't. I'm trying very hard not to feel this way. But it seems like the more I try NOT to get annoyed, I DO. Which only serves to irritate me more, what the heck.
So I'm sorry if sometimes I seem very waspish. Your personality seems to rub me the wrong way, even though I know very well that you don't mean anything by it. I disagree with most things you say, which frustrates me, because you keep trying to persuade me to see it your way, and I CAN'T see it your way because I DISLIKE your way.
You're such a wonderful, bright and cheery person but I can't seem to make myself appreciate you. Maybe because you're everything I'm not and you make me feel ashamed? Probably. Maybe because your views differ vastly from mine? Probably. Maybe because you're S-L-G? Probably.
Would you please stop bothering me with your NICE-ness already? Maybe if you stop being so nice and try being a little mean I might start to like you. Until then...I shall ganbatte and keep trying to appreciate you more...
I'm sorry.
...is what I said. Savvy?
11:11 pm